thoughts and gratitudes: 2 days in 1 entry

Hi guys!

This is another entry where i combine 2 days into a single entry. Where do these days come from, you ask? from my diaries, of course. 

One is dedicated to gratitudes and the other to my feelings or mental health-related stuff. 

if you also wonder why didn't i write here directly, it's because it's easier for me to write by hand and i was feeling very shitty because our beloved cat left us too soon. shitty is actually a huge understatement: i was devastated. 

well, anyways, let's move on to the day's entry. 

september 9th

1. HAPPY I DRANK A HOT CHOCOLATE AFTER A FEW DAYS OF NO CAFFEINE. yeah, guess what? due to the treatment I'm under, i can't have caffeine, chocolate, and alcohol. You can also add sweets to the list.

Of course, i can't stay away from these "demons." 

2. HAPPY WE WERE ABLE TO GO TO THE POOL THIS WEEK. what can i say? it's relaxing to go to the pool. 

3. GRATEFUL AND HAPPY I MANAGED TO MAKE THE CHARGER OF THE COMPUTER TO WORK AGAIN AFTER THE ANIMALS MESSED WITH IT YESTERDAY. luckily, they were fine, I'm not sure what they did, but the charger refused to charge the computer, but i fixed it quite fast. 

a) GRATEFUL TO WAKE UP FOR ANOTHER DAY. We really can't take for granted the days we were given for we never know when they run out. 

b) GRATEFUL MY HEALTH IS NOT CAUSING ME PROBLEMS TODAY.

again, most of us take our health for granted. we simply have to be happy with the health we do have and try and do the best we can if we suffer from any illness, seen or not, diagnosed or not. 

c) GRATEFUL I'M ABLE TO SHARE EVERYTHING WITH ANNA FOR ANOTHER DAY. <3 :) i don't think i have to repeat myself. go read point "a)" again. 

september 12th

yesterday i had a bad panic attack/PTSD episode. We took one of the cats for his first vaccine. Of course, he started crying on the way there. This reminded me of the day we lost our 2nd oldest cat.

That day, he couldn't breathe well, so i rushed him to the vet, hoping they could do something for him. But he was crying sadly, begging me to take him back home. 

1. Happy and grateful that we had Mickey in our lives for almost 12 years. 

2. Happy and grateful that we managed to rescue so many cats off the streets

3. Happy and grateful that we stuck together through better or worse. 

(c) 2013 - present 

Charly C.